How Should Jesus’ Lordship Inform Our Faith Walk?

By Lisa Groen

Jesus asked his disciples one day in Luke 6:26 “Why do you call Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do what I say?” Now aside from this being a very direct question it was one that was intended to bring self-reflection to the disciples to help them evaluate whether or not they were just giving lip service to the Lord and falling short of living in obedience to the Lord they professed to follow. I wrote in another post earlier today that the Biblical definition of Lord in the Greek according to https://biblehub.com/greek/2962.htm is kýrios – “properly, a person exercising absolute ownership rightslord (Lord).  He to whom a person or thing belongs, about which he has the power of deciding; master, lord; used… universally, of the possessor and disposer of a thing, the owner.” Thayer’s Greek Lexicon on the same webpage says, “this title is given to God, the ruler of the universe.” These qualities demand, but not just demand, they encourage, they promote, they spur us on toward loving Jesus in loving obedience.

Romans 1:5 Through Him we have received grace and apostleship for the obedience of faith among all nations for His name, among whom you also are called by Jesus Christ:

Romans 16:25-27  Now to Him who has power to establish you according to my gospel and the preaching of Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery, which was kept secret for long ages past, 26 but now is revealed by the prophetic Scriptures according to the commandment of the everlasting God, made known to all the Gentiles for the obedience of faith, 27 to the only wise God, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever. Amen.

Matthew 7:24-29 “Whoever hears these sayings of Mine and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on a rock. 25 And the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house. And it did not fall, for it was founded a rock. 26 And every one who hears these sayings of Mine and does not do them will be likened to a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27 And the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house. And it fell. And its fall was great.” 28 When Jesus finished these sayings, the people were astonished at His teaching, 29 for He taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.

Reflection: How is Christ prompting you to obey Him? What areas of your life seem weak in comparison with the scripture you know? How would the Lord have you pray to strengthen the areas you experience weakness? What would the Lord have you to apply to your life to honor the admonitions we see for the Christ follower in the scripture? Is there a person in your life you can share your prayer concerns with and pursue seeking the Lord’s help in becoming a better follower and doer of the word?   LG

Real Christian Faith: Believing Jesus is Lord, Jesus is God, and Jesus Came to Earth as Lord, God, and The Lamb of God

The Biblical definition of Lord in the Greek according to https://biblehub.com/greek/2962.htm is kýrios – properly, a person exercising absolute ownership rightslord (Lord).  He to whom a person or thing belongs, about which he has the power of deciding; master, lord; used… universally, of the possessor and disposer of a thing, the owner. Thayer’s Greek Lexicon on the same webpage says this title is given to God, the ruler of the universe. 

True faith must have the right understanding of the identity of God and Jesus:

The Bible declares the Lord is God:

Exodus 15:2 The Lord is my strength and song, and He has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise Him; my father’s God, and I will exalt Him.

Exodus 18:11 Now I know that the Lord is greater than all gods, for in the matter in which they treated the people insolently, He was above them.”

Exodus 34:14 (for you shall not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God),

Deuteronomy 3:24 “O Lord God, You have begun to show Your servant Your greatness, and Your mighty hand, for what god is there in heaven or in earth that can do according to Your works and according to Your might?

The next Bible verse tells us there is such a thing as “God of Gods” and “Lord of Lords” which is one person—the Lord your God— which we see from this Deuteronomy verse:

Deuteronomy 10:17 For the Lord your God is the God of gods and Lord of lords, the great, the mighty, and the fearsome God who is unbiased and takes no bribe.

Evidence That Jesus is Lord:

The Bible declares Jesus is Lord in numerous scriptures, and that Jesus is the Lord of Lords. Many people wh lived in Jesus’ day gave Jesus the title “Lord” and Jesus never corrected them. Some of them are

Matthew 4:7 Jesus said to him, “It is also written, ‘You shall not tempt the Lord your God.’ ” Jesus spoke this to Satan who was trying to tempt Him.

Matthew 9:28 When He entered the house, the blind men came to Him. And Jesus said to them, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?” They said to Him, “Yes, Lord.”

1 Timothy 6:12 Fight the good fight of faith. Lay hold on eternal life, to which you are called and have professed a good profession before many witnesses. 13 I command you, in the sight of God, who gives life to all things, and in the sight of Christ Jesus, who testified a good confession before Pontius Pilate, 14 to keep this commandment without blemish, blameless until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ, 15 which He, who is the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, will reveal at the proper time. 16 He alone has immortality, living in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen, nor can see. To Him be honor and everlasting power. Amen.

Luke 5:12 When He was in a certain city, a man full of leprosy, upon seeing Jesus, fell on his face and begged Him, “Lord, if You will, You can make me clean.”

The above scriptures show Jesus is Lord, and Because Jesus is Lord, Jesus is God because The Lord is God:

Now we are onto scriptures showing Jesus is the Lamb of God

John 1:29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, “Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world.

John 1:36 Looking upon Jesus as He walked, he said, “Look, the Lamb of God!”

1 Peter 1:18-20 For you know that you were not redeemed from your vain way of life inherited from your fathers with perishable things, like silver or gold, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot. 20 He was foreordained before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for you.

The Lamb of God is Jesus, so the next verse tells us Jesus (the Lamb of God) is the Lord of lords and King of kings

Revelation 17:14 These will wage war with the Lamb, but the Lamb will overcome them, for He is Lord of lords and King of kings. Those who are with Him are called and chosen and faithful.”

The next following verses tell us Jesus the Lamb has qualities only God possesses:

Revelation 5:12 saying with a loud voice: “Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power and riches and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and blessing!”

Revelation 5:13 Then I heard every creature which is in heaven and on the earth and under the earth and in the sea, and all that are in them, saying: “To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be blessing and honor and glory and power, forever and ever!”

Revelation 7:10 They cried out with a loud voice: “Salvation belongs to our God who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb!”

Revelation 7:17 for the Lamb who is in the midst of the throne will shepherd them and ‘He will lead them to springs of living water.’ ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.’”

Revelation 13:8 All who dwell on the earth will worship him, all whose names have not been written in the Book of Life of the Lamb who was slain from the foundation of the world.

Revelation 14:4 These are those who were not defiled with women, for they are virgins. These are those who follow the Lamb wherever He goes. These were redeemed from among men, as first fruits to God and to the Lamb.

Revelation 21:23 The city has no need of sun or moon to shine in it, for the glory of God is its light, and its lamp is the Lamb.

Because of discovering the overlap with these Biblical titles for Jesus, we become better equipped for the posture we must take as Christians in response to the revealing of these aspects of the person of Jesus.

Prayer: Dear Lord Jesus, may our posture toward you in prayer, worship and everyday life reflect the knowledge that you are Lord, you are God, and that you are the Lamb of God who takes away our sin. May the outworking of our faith in this life honor you as Lord, Savior, and God, and when we fall short of your glory, may the touch of the Lamb strengthen us as we think about how familiar you were with human frailty and how familiar you are with our griefs. May our fellowship with you be one of humility because of your example as we see your approach toward us is that of a humble Lamb. As we encounter people of other faiths who may have been taught errors instead of facts about you Jesus, Lord may we follow your gentle approach and example that you have shown to us, and may you prepare us with truth to share in ways that can bring them real hope and the true sense of your grace, because it was you who demonstrated the laying down of your life for the sins of the world, the ultimate humility and graciousness. May more and more people through taking in of the scriptures such as the ones listed above dear Lord become aware that salvation came from you in these aspects as you filled these titles and qualities you lived out in your life on earth and on the cross and currently possess in heaven. For you said Jesus, as the Lamb who died on the cross for us, the words “It is finished”. These words showed you opened the way of salvation for the world in need of it to come simply through faith, because you were slain on the cross for our sins and did this as Lord, as God, and true salvation can only come through God, not as a work of a man. Lord Jesus you fulfilled the role of the Lamb of God that was slain from the foundation of the world and now are present in heaven as Lord, God, and Lamb of God. May these truths ever inform our walk of faith with you, our prayer, in our devotion, and in our sharing this hope of salvation with others. LG

Day by Day Bible Exploration of the Communicable and Incommunicable Attributes of God—Day 2

God is Benevolent

According to https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/benevolent, gives 3 main descriptions for a benevolent person. First, it describes benevolence as “marked by or disposed to doing good”, such as “a benevolent donor”. 2 “organized for the purpose of doing good” such as a “benevolent society”. And 3, “marked by or suggestive of goodwill”, such as benevolent smiles.

Merriam-Webster.com goes on to say about the history of the word, it is as follows—”Benevolent has a good history. One who is benevolent genuinely wishes other people well, a meaning reflected clearly in the word’s Latin roots: benevolent comes from bene, meaning “good,” and velle, meaning “to wish.”” A benevolent person is one who wishes a person well. It is reminiscent of the greeting of John to Gaius in 3rd John 1:2 which reads, “Dear friend, I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, just as it is well with your soul.”

It also reflects the goodwill of God toward mankind in Luke 2:14 which is what the angels were announcing at Jesus Birth, which is “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.” God’s good will was proclaimed at the very start of God’s plan of redemption. It shows nothing less than God’s own good will. Right at the very start of Jesus’s life on earth, God announced His benevolence to be heard about and to be sung about by angels and proclaimed all across the earth toward people.

Additional scriptures that support the idea of God’s benevolence or support the truth that God takes pleasure in showing His goodwill toward people are Ephesians 1:5, which reads, “He predestined us to adoption as sons to Himself through Jesus Christ according to the good pleasure of His will.” Also, as God is all wise, we see wisdom speaking in Proverbs 8:31, telling how it had been “Rejoicing in the world, His earth, And having my delight in the sons of mankind.” And Philippians 2:13 speaks of God’s good pleasure again which reads, “For God is the One working in you, both to will and to do His good pleasure.” LG

Day by Day Bible Exploration of the Communicable and Incommunicable Attributes of God -Day 1

by Lisa Groen

Aseity—from the website https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/ aseity is “the quality or state of being self-derived or self-originated specifically the absolute self-sufficiency, independence, and autonomy of God. A couple scripture passages that show God’s aseity are Isaiah 45:21 Declare and present your case; let them take counsel together! Who told this long ago? Who declared it of old? Was it not I, the Lord? And there is no other god besides me, a righteous God and a Savior; (this shows God’s independence and autonomy) and Isaiah 43:10, ““You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor shall there be any after me.”(this shows his absolute self-sufficiency) From Dictionary.com “An aseity is the existence of something that has no source outside of itself or that has always existed with no creation.” Or in other words, God is God all by Himself. He perfectly fills the role with no equal and with no one needing to help him be God. Although ministering to God (for example as Samuel did) and fellowshipping with God may seem to have some overlap in meaning, they are different from the idea of “helping” God exist as God because to help God be God is an oxymoron. While I believe God can take pleasure in us, and when a believer participates in fellowshipping with God and/or ministering to God, those things are the result of his people having been made a part of His kingdom but somehow those functions don’t add to God’s personal God-ness, although those functions serve to glorify His kingdom and rule. Acts 7:49-50 shows the self-sufficiency and autonomy of God, a quality of vital importance to keep in mind as we relate to him. It reads, “‘Heaven is My throne, and the earth is My footstool. What house will you build for Me? says the Lord, or what is the place of My rest? Has not My hand made all these things?’” 

Over the next several weeks I hope to cover much more, as I add to this list of God’s attributes. LG

How Can You Obey God’s Word if You Don’t Read or Hear God’s Word?

God is full of so much love for individuals in the world that He would rather let Jesus undergo the suffering of dying on a bloody cross than to be without those he saves for eternity. With this kind of devoted love from God, that should peak the interest in hearing what He has to say, yes?

Even though many have apprehended this reality, many who are aware of this put the word on the back burner. What God has spoken through His word, because of who he is alone, makes His words worth being read, studied, and applied!

What can we infer from John 6:46? It reads, “Why do you call me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say?” Can we expect God to take into consideration how we respond to His Lordship when He judges us at the end of time? We who hear God’s word and have confessed Jesus as Lord, should we not judge ourselves ahead of time in this life and answer with honesty the question “are we LIVING in proper response to His Lordship??”

In order to live according to His Lordship, we must know what God tells us about how to live in His Word. What should be said to a person who finds little pleasure in God’s word in this life? According to Psalm 119, King David spent 176 verses expressing his delight in God’s word. King David’s reflection on God’s works, precepts, commands, decrees, judgments, ordinances and the words God used to express Himself was one of affection, honor, and reverence. David’s approach inspires all who read it the same kind of delight and honor of God’s word.

Not in replacement of faith, but in combination with faith, certainly the element of obedience to the word must get factored into the measurement God will use to distinguish the people who belong to Him at the end of time from those who don’t. The only obedience to God that there IS in existence anywhere on the part of a person who says they follow God, is to obey God’s Word, the Bible, and not to follow merely the commands of men! Obedience is not the method of salvation, but obedience is found in every life where Jesus is truly Lord.

There is NO REPLACEMENT for reading or listening to the word of God! The more we know God’s word, the more His word will challenge us to obey Him, prompt us in our growth, and become a living part of us. We will be in awe of God because we will have made room in our hearts as Mary and Joseph sought a place to abide with Jesus in the Inn. Our hearts can easily become filled with the business this world offers, like the Inn that was full of other business as Mary and Joseph first found. Let us learn from the Biblical example given to us, and work at making room for Jesus to have a proper place through his word to be laid in our hearts! Let us prepare ourselves to have value for and affection for His word that shows His Lordship over us and that we belong to Him! LG

Why it is Absolutely Imperative That The Christian Read The Bible Regularly–Reasons #1 and #2

by Lisa Groen

#1 You can’t overcome sin in your own strength

It is nothing less than spiritual work to overcome sin. Sin is a spiritual illness with moral implications. You need spiritual food for spiritual strength. The word of God is bread from heaven or spiritual food God intends for us to read and take in like food and ingest it until it becomes a part of us and shapes us.

Can sin be overcome by a means other than spiritual work? Temporary means or natural means to overcome sin gives only temporary or non-eternal success. Someone might overcome a sin by their own natural self-control for a while. The fruit of lasting self-control only comes from God. This overcoming of sin is only possible after a person is born-again from God. John 3:3 says, “…“Truly, truly, I say to you, unless someone is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.” God says He gives us fruit that will LAST to eternity. A person must be born again otherwise their fruit won’t last to eternity. The person must be saved out of the kingdom of darkness before their fruit will last. Jesus was speaking to His followers when He said, (in John 15:16) ““You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.”

One such fruit is self-control which comes from God and is of a purer sort and of a supernatural sort different than any self-control that can be mustered up from a person’s own human strength. God has never sinned so his self-control was never tarnished by sin or spiritual illness. A list of common fruits of the Spirit is found in Galatians 5:22-23. This list has elements found in God’s own personality. The NASB reads, “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.”

When God’s word speaks of fruit of the Spirit, it is speaking of a fruit coming from the supernatural life of God which comes from an eternal God and has properties of eternality itself. These properties are found in the purest form in God’s personality and are properties he shares with those who trust Him to make them Christlike.

We cannot do a better job than Jesus did to overcome sin. Jesus had no sin, and he never let it creep into his life. But Jesus who is the Son of God Himself used the word of God as a sword of declaration to overcome temptation and the devil. In Matthew 4:1-11 Jesus used the very word of God to fight the temptations of the devil. This is how he overcame it—he gave no place to the devil or to temptation. It is THIS Jesus that gave us His words, the one who never sinned and is our Savior, that has given us His words, and the words of the Heavenly Father and Holy Spirit are in Scripture to arm us for the battles we face in life.

Reason #2 Why it is Absolutely Imperative That The Christian Reads The Bible Regularly Builds off Reason #1: You Must Be Killing Sin or Sin Will Be Killing You

You can only kill sin in your life through a saving relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, because we kill sin by the Spirit of God. The same power that was there to crucify our sins that God the Father placed upon our Lord Jesus our sacrificial Lamb, is there to crucify the sin in our lives, and raise us up to walk a spiritually empowered life for God. Romans 8:13 GNT reads, “For if you live according to your human nature, you are going to die; but if by the Spirit you put to death your sinful actions, you will live.”

If you are not killing sin in some way through the help of God’s Spirit you might not be a Christian and you should check yourself. God gave us an example to show how he would kill our sin, first upon Christ, then in our lives, but without us having to die for our sins in the process. Hebrews 10:10 reads, “And by that will, we have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.”

If you are not killing your sin by the Spirit of God, you should stop, pray and get right with God! Our sins were placed upon Jesus, then Jesus was killed for our sins. Isaiah 53:6 NIV reads, “We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.” 1 Peter 3:18 NIV reads, “For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.”

We must follow through with what God demonstrated as His approach to sin. By the Spirit, we must crucify sin in our lives, which means to deprive it of food, strength, and opportunity. Jesus did all these things with perfection and His victory becomes ours as we put our faith in his life, death, and resurrection of pure, harmless and sinless obedience. Praise God for His word which He has made available to us so we might know what God has destined to be killed out of us because of the resurrection of Christ, and that declares and shares His victory!   LG

Can God Change the LGBTQIA+, the Non-Binary Person, or Person With a Different Gender Identity Than What They Were Born With?

by Lisa Groen

I use the pronoun “he” or “they” many times to describe heterosexual men and women, LGBTQIA+, binary, non-binary, and people with a different gender identity than what they were born with throughout this post.

I am making these statements based on a fundamental belief that God tells us what the definition of sin is and God is the only one who has the solution to sin.

I am making these statements based on what God gives as the solution to sin for the heterosexual, the binary person, the LGBTQIA+, the non-binary person, and person with identity issues which is something called repentance which God can give freely to any person who agrees with God about his sin.

The person who is willing to repent and wanting to repent must agree with God’s definition of sin and turn from that lifestyle of sin that they have as either an unsaved binary or unsaved non-binary person or as an unsaved person with identity issues.

The Bible states that God accepts everyone who comes to him for help to be free from sin.

This is salvation. God’s salvation is spoken of in the Bible and is available to the heterosexual person and in the SAME FULL WAY to the LGBTQIA+, the binary, the non-binary person and to the person with a different gender identity than what they were born with.

There are conditions for all said people that God places upon them in order for them to have a faith in God that results in salvation and thus results in being in heaven with God for eternity.

The conditions are that God wants everyone no matter the group they are in to leave his life of sin by faith and turn to Jesus the Lord of Heaven and earth who gave his righteousness through dying on the cross for that sinner to receive (Jesus’) righteousness and forgiveness.

FREE GIFTS FROM GOD FOR THIS:

Faith in Jesus The Lord is a free gift of God

Repentance from Jesus is a free gift Jesus gives to sinners

Jesus’ forgiveness is a free gift he gives to sinners

Bearing fruit in keeping with repentance is a free gift but we must mix our faith with God’s command to bear fruit for God.

Following Jesus is a command of God that is a free gift but we must mix our faith with this command and follow Jesus through scripture

God’s word is a free gift we can find in many places on the internet. Abiding in the Word of God is a command that we must follow by mixing our faith with it which simply means to go through the Bible to learn His Word well so we can get a good understanding of what the words of God are we should be abiding in. The more we study the Bible and understand it the more we get better at abiding in it. Abiding in the word is part of the supernatural relationship God gives the believer to equip him to recognize his sin and overcome his sin by the power of the Spirit of God day by day.

What overcomes sin in the believer’s life?—The power of God’s Spirit working through the life of a person who comes to God as any of the above groups of people. The power of the Spirit is a FREE gift.

What will the result be for the heterosexual person who came to Christ and the LGBTQIA+, binary, non-binary person, or person with a different sexual identity than what they were born with who came to Christ? THE RESULT WILL BE THE SAME FOR EACH OF THE HETEROSEXUAL, LGBTQIA, BINARY, NON-BINARY, AND DIFFERENT GENDER THAN WHAT THEY WERE BORN WITH PERSON=EACH WILL RECEIVE AN IDENTITY CHANGE THAT COMES FROM GOD. No group can pursue their old identity and maintain a growing relationship with God; we, all of us MUST PURSUE CHRISTLIKENESS as our new identity. This New Identity is a free gift from God. It is not something we muster up in our own strength. It is a supernatural free gift of an identity change.

1 Corinthians 6:9-11 reads “Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, 10 nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 Such were some of you; (Such were some of you means some were homosexuals, (pursuing same sex relationships–some were full of other kinds of sin, sin is an identity issue in God’s book) but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.” This passage talks about God changing people to prepare them for freedom from sin and gives them a holy lifestyle of Christlikeness for eternity with Him

Can God change anyone? Yes! Can God give us the power to pursue Him? Yes? This is called bearing fruit in keeping with repentance. The identity change God makes in a person through salvation is supernatural, and will result in the person taking on Christlikeness, aligning their pronoun, gender, and sexual orientation, and spiritual pursuits, with the Biblical sexual orientation of Christ-followers, spiritual pursuits of Christ-followers, and becoming binary. Before I came to Christ I had the identity of a thief, I had the identity of a liar, I had the identity of someone who did not respect some authority figures, I had the identity of a person who cursed, I mocked, I was arrogant, I was hostile at my dad for the abuse me and my siblings suffered and mad at my mother for letting it happen. I carried bitterness around and a snarky attitude. Probably a lot of other things! Did God change me? YES! I ended up with a wonderful relationship with my dad before he died. I am not perfect, but I was giving to my mother and helped with her care and was patient with her and overlooked her tendency toward passivity in order to build a relationship with her and realized she needed people to understand her and that there were people she did not trust. I gave up selfishness in a lot of ways and found it is more blessed to give than receive. I still could give more to others around me, but I am growing. I gave up lying to follow the truth and speak the truth of God. I gave up bitterness because I had been forgiven, I gave up cursing because I had been blessed and in order to praise God, I gave up snarky-ness order to be a better friend to people because Jesus was a friend to me when I was not easy to get along with. I gave up pursuing emotions that made me bitter because I saw Jesus had a better way of life for me.

Most of all, I am an example to every LGBTQIA+, non-binary person, or person with a gender identity different from what they were born with out there. I have not pursued romance since 2013. Although I was never struggled with gender identity issues and never been tempted to pursue a same sex relationship for dating or romance, I did pursue heterosexual romantic relationships for a while during my walk with God. I am an example now for how to not pursue romance of any sort for the last 10 years but live simply for God. The Lord Jesus has given me the gift of celibacy and I don’t feel a need to get married, so I don’t date. I have joy and happiness in the Lord although I am celibate. I have a new identity in Christ different than when I first came to Christ years ago with multiple sin patterns in my life that controlled my life until He changed me. It was a free gift! I have a Christ-like identity now thanks to the grace of God which changed me! LG

I Am a Christian and Was Incarcerated, Part 2

By Lisa Groen

I believe if God sees fit to take someone to jail, God is faithful to put the kind of faith in them to match the level of hardship he takes them through! 

Perhaps from the sheer boredom and praying that I would learn whatever the Lord wanted to teach me I took on the posture of teachableness. The Bible became very meaningful to me in fresh ways and Jesus became more real to me and showed himself to be my most reliable and trustworthy friend. We get so distracted by the stimuli in the world, and when you have those things stripped away, it’s interesting how your ears get opened and your heart can grow soft to God’s leading. I found a Bible right away and kept my nose in it day after day. I would pray about the stresses of jail, and sought God as to why He let the circumstances happen that led me into jail. I sought God in jail and let Him know I didn’t want be a hard hearted person which is a common stereotype people on the outside of jail have of people on the inside.

I prayed about many things in jail on a personal level because you have time to do a lot of self-reflection. You realize you need encouragement, but many family and friends I had for years never wrote me back after I would write them a 6- or 7-page letter. At the time I wondered why people can’t write back a sentence or two after you pour your heart out to them. I realized to become resentful about that would be not fitting because prisoners by definition have few rights. I found it was best to focus on the people who wanted to be in my life.

As far as jail goes harassment is common. A lot of it is based on power struggles and on who thinks they can dominate. Some of the women in my pod wanted me to get kicked out of the low security part and put in lock down. I was told about 5 of the women who happened to be black misinterpreted something that I said and they thought I was racist. They were saying I was the whitest one in the jail because they used hood language and I didn’t know what they were saying some of the time because I am not from the hood. So, I tried to fit in by dancing like some of them. They thought I was making fun of them by my lousy dance so a few days later one of my friends who was friends with them warned me about the 5 women. It just happened to be a woman who I shared part of my testimony of Jesus with.

The women who wanted me to get kicked out of low security kept doing things like putting their shampoo in my shower stall when I would go to wash my socks and underwear. They wanted me to close the door to the shower stall so they could accuse me of stealing their shampoo, but the Lord directed me as to what was going on, and I kept the shower stall open and nothing happened because the video cameras were just outside the shower stalls recording everything.

Kindness always goes a long way as a Christian in or out of jail, but you have to know who you’re dealing with. Sometimes hardships can pop up when you’re going out of your way to be a generous person. One woman told another right in front of me I was her B- – – – because I was nice and would share snacks and other things I would buy from the commissary. So even though I was trying to be nice, some of them thought I was trying too hard to win friends so they began to “use me” to get free snacks and other things. One girl tried to pretend to be sick to see if I would give her free cough drops without asking for anything in return. It was obvious to me she was not sick but only pretending. I told her she didn’t look or sound sick and did not give her any cough drops. I hate being lied to.

Other conflicts that arose from a power trip happened such as one of the women waved her arms around my head and leaned over me and said something like “whhhhooosh!” so I ducked out of the way and I had to lean over the balcony on the second floor in order to keep from being hit in the head by her. I told the guard about her because I had done nothing rude to her. One of my cell mates would get off her bunk really quick and she kicked me in the head as I sat on the side of my bed. When she did it a second time I told her to quit doing that and she flipped out on me and said I was crazy. She then was yelling at the top of her lungs at me about all kinds of things and fabricating lies about things she said I did wrong but I did none of those things. I thought “there is going to be no peace in my cell because she has flown off the deep end and she didn’t seem to want to be reeled in” by anything I said. I complained to the guard about her wild imagination and her unpredictableness and her verbally and physically aggressive ways for no reason and asked for a different cell. They ended up moving her out of my cell across the pod to a different cell.

I did not realize how quickly a person becomes unpopular when you tell the guards about another prisoner not treating you right. I had no experience in jail before this. That’s when she and several other women wanted to believe I made up lies about her so they began to treat me with dirty looks, suspicion, hostility, and loud rude comments and dozens of acts of mockery. At times it felt like I had a lot of enemies in jail, and little support from outside of jail or from many people I had known a really long time. Jesus helped me make the friends I needed to have in jail, and he protected me from the people I did not need as friends and their schemes. One day God gave me the scripture Isaiah 41:12 which says “Though you search for your enemies, you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be as nothing at all.” I knew God was promising my jail experience was going to get better.  The Lord also gave me hope that I wasn’t going to get beat up by the 5 women when he showed me Proverbs 6:16-19 “There are six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to him: 17 haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, 18 a heart that devises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, 19 a false witness who pours out lies and a person who stirs up conflict in the community.”

God was taking the time to show me he hated their behavior. Because they were devising schemes to make me look like a thief, and were lying about me to the guards, because they had a plan to rush into evil by harassing me daily, and because they were stirring up conflict in the community by constantly mocking me and changing position in line whenever we would stand in line for meds, so they could be right behind me or in front of me to harass and intimidate me, criticize me loudly and trying to humiliate me.  In the middle of that, God gave me the assurance that he was going to protect me from their evil plans, conflict, harassment, and pointless mockery, because He showed me those scriptures. I knew some relief was on the way! It was just a matter of His timing!

Because my friend informed me, I knew what to pray for. I used the promises God gave me to pray. As I waited on God to answer, I was harassed by those 5 women for weeks until one of the guards made everyone get out of their cells and come down to the main floor and yelled at everyone and said he wanted the disrespect to stop and then pointed at me and yelled at everyone for their behavior for a few minutes basically saying they need to stop harassing people, and he pointed at me to show them who to stop harassing. One of the main women who harassed me day after day and brushed against me with her giant body calling me the B word decided to be nice to me after a while. (She was about 6 feet tall and weighed about 320 pounds, and I am 5’4”). Others became nice to me when they saw I was a good volleyball player. God prevented them from getting me set up to look guilty when one of them threw a lit match in my cell when the guards were passing out mail and when they got to my cell and smelled the smoke from the match I didn’t get in trouble for it and God prevented me from going into lock down high security.

I knew God wanted me to do something positive other than just trying to “hide” my life in Jesus. I remembered Jesus said he has made us the light of the world, (In Matthew 5:14, Jesus says, “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.”) I knew we should not hide our lights, and that meant I was going to need to keep praying and ask God to help me overlook people’s abuse and nastiness and the mental strength to be kind to them and not look at their wrongs. God never left me but He let me go through hardships while He drew me close in jail when all that negative stuff was happening. I found some of the hearts of the women changed and God gave me what I needed in the midst of a difficult 75 days as long as I was praying about being a positive influence and not hiding my light under a bushel.

Lessons learned:

Pray that God would help you be teachable. God will provide faith to match the level of difficulty of the situation.

Don’t become miffed at people who don’t reach out to you after you reach out to them. Focus on the people who want to be in your life.

People in jail can be hypersensitive. Don’t try too hard to fit in, because people can misinterpret your behavior.

If you get harassed, I believe God cares about this, and God still wants his justice to unfold on behalf of those who trust in Him and seek Him for help behind bars.

Pray about everything. Break out of your shell even if people treat you roughly in jail and take time to be kind to people. Don’t take your relationships for granted even if you just met them because God has a purpose even for the difficult relationships, and they may need the light of Jesus from your faith to shine on them and that can only happen when your heart is right toward them. If God sees fit to put you in jail, let Isaiah 9:2 become a reality for others. When they see your faith is real, and if they can get a needed glimpse of Jesus, and if they are drawn to God, we will be able to tell the testimony “The people which sat in darkness saw a great light.” LG